This band was a huge impact to my childhood as I was growing up. The melodies and lyrics on this album is haunting and just sticks in your head. Sometimes it fucks with your head too because a lot of it is very depressing. But that's what made me love it so much, even as a non-Christian I can embrace the words he's screaming at bloody Jesus Christ. Years afterwards I read on Lambgoat that apparently the lead singer committed suicide at the age of twenty-nine. Tragically that is too young of an age to die. I am still years away from that age, thank God. This reminds me of something barely relevant though. When we were all young and going to shows, we thought we were going to be the greatest things when we got older. We were all good looking youths ridden with nothing but confidence and potential. But as we grew out of our youth hood and started falling apart from each other and the scene, a lot of us didn't turn out to be who we imagined. I see copious amounts of people sinking into drug abuse, mental illness, unemployment, social welfare/disability, and even worse, becoming clubbers dancing to dubstep. Our future was not what we imagined and it seems like though we were raised with everything, at the end of the day, we were too spoiled to put work into making the best out of ourselves. I am truly sorry what Josh did to himself. I heard he left behind divorced wife and kid, which was also unfortunate. One of these days, his son/daughter will listen to this album and never know what it's like growing up with the biological father. Suicide is a selfish act because you do not consider your loved ones. But I'm not gonna get into that. Here is the album.
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